The jagged snap of a broken bone, the sharp sting of a cut or throbbing ache of a bruise, even the gut-wrenching grief of losing a loved one—we have all endured these at one time or another.
But imagine if you carried such pain through every moment of the day, every single day for years on end.
Imagine that each time you sit down, it feels as though someone has plunged a drill into your leg, piercing all the way to the bone.
Imagine back muscles strained so taut from years of chronic injury that when a spasm hits, you can barely breathe, barely move—all you can do is try not to scream and pray that this time the prescription painkillers will work.
But even worse is the psychological toll caused by such debilitating pain. Anger, depression, despair, suicidal tendencies, guilt, worthlessness… All of these become a daily battle as well, a dark maelstrom of negativity that threatens to consume your heart and mind.
The Yellow Door chronicles the inspiring and deeply personal journey of one woman’s fight with the inner demons unleashed by chronic pain and illness.
Told in raw, heartfelt prose and lush poetry collected from nearly a decade of the author’s life, it is a profound exploration of the human spirit’s capacity for resilience and courage.
It is a true story of hope in the face of overwhelming circumstances, of redefining oneself beyond crippling limitations, and of discovering beauty in all things, even in the midst of pain and despair.
Ultimately, The Yellow Door is a journey into the depths of the heart itself, a testament of healing that speaks to anyone who has experienced great loss, searched for identity, or struggled with faith.
Amy Pauli is a Texas-born writer and photographer. At the age of twenty-one, she was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome and endometriosis, then became permanently disabled three years later when she injured her leg and pelvis. She began journaling in 2006 to combat the severe depression accompanying her disability, and soon discovered that recording her experiences enabled her to make peace with her limitations. On good days Amy can be found exploring the back roads of Eastern Washington with her camera in hand, and on most other days working on her novel, a retelling of the world’s oldest and most beautiful fairy tale.